Mental Health, Student Life

University Update: The End Of First Year

So, I’ve officially finished the end of my first year of university. I’m no longer a fresher, and I’m a little scared for the future. I have blogged a few times about my experiences at university, particularly when I first went, so I thought it would only be right to update you on everything now that my first year is over!
All in all, I didn’t have a bad first year. Grades wise I’m very happy with what I managed to achieve, and I really enjoyed most of my modules and classes so that’s a positive. But this year has been hard, and I’m not going to sugar coat that.
I’ve really learnt a lot about myself this year. I’ve learnt a lot about mental illness, and a lot about my anxiety and how it can affect my body. I’ve experienced the worst my anxiety has ever been for prolonged periods of time, but I’ve come out of the other end and I feel stronger mentally now.
However, this crippling anxiety that I experienced towards the last few months of my first year did mean that I’ve missed out on things I wanted to attend. I’ve also distanced myself from the friends I first made, and that really makes me sad because I was so happy with my friends at the end of the first term.
To put it bluntly, my anxiety has been making me physically ill. This, combined with the stress of university has really taken it’s toll on me mentally and physically which is why I resulted in distancing myself from my friends a little. This is my own fault completely, but it is because when I’ve tried to explain my anxiety to friends in the past I’ve been ridiculed, so I tend not to mention it now.
I was very unhappy with where I lived in first year, especially towards the end. This made me feel unsafe and contributed to the anxiety I was already feeling, so I was at a real low.
The first year of university just really wasn’t what I expected it to be. However, I love my job, my course, and the people I’m living with in September, so here’s hoping for a much better second year!
H x

6 thoughts on “University Update: The End Of First Year

  1. Well done you for getting through your first year, and for getting a grade that you’re proud of too, that’s a fantastic achievement! I’m so sorry that some people in your life haven’t tried to understand when you’ve spoken about your MH, that’s so disappointing and rather closed minded of them! It takes even more hard work for you to succeed at uni because you’re not only working at your course but you’re also dealing with anxiety, which is so challenging! Your efforts therefore deserve to be applauded even more! I hope that your second year will be way more positive, it sounds like it has a lot of potential for happiness! Plus you get to meet meeeee hehe! Much love for you girl!
    Abbey 🌸

  2. Congratulations on a huge set of achievements there: getting through an academic year is tough enough as it is at uni (I didn’t make it!), but to do that with anxiety on top is really impressive. I’m so sorry you’ve had to deal with people who aren’t super understanding of your MH; I’ve been there too and it is so hurtful, I know BUT I promise that’s just a small % of people in total and there will be lots more people and friends who will be understanding.
    I am so happy for you that you’ve come out the other side of everything, I can just FEEL that your second year is going to be amazing because YOU are!
    Kate x

  3. Well done for finishing your first year! The first half of my first year was horrible too – my flatmates were so awful I moved to a new one, and I didn’t enjoy my course. Luckily it all got a lot better as soon as I moved. I’m so glad you managed to get past the horrible things and you have good things to focus on, like your good grades and your friends!

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